future ? scary stufff

just had one of those scary thoughts...
what the hell am i gonna do with my life?
fairdooos im a smarty ...
ive got an A in Intermediate 2 maths
and a 2 in Standard Grade english already.
im sitting

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int.2 english
s.g chemistry
s.g biology
s.g modern studies
s.g history
s.g art
s.g french
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im supposed to get straight 1's/a's ?
no pressure ofc :S

ayee...back to future.

i wanna stay on at schoool

maybe 4 or 5 highers

then 2 or 3 advanced highers ?

yeh..denny high for highers ?

cross yer fingers for me

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i have no clue what im doing after tht

this is where i kinda freak out.

i wanna go to university.

but...what to do ?

i was thinking maybe teaching?

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but ayee my ambition is to be in a permanent job

by the time im 23/24 ish ?

kids? id like to think so...

only 1 or 2 tho...

not before im at least 20

id love to get married.

idk if its before or after kids.

my parents wernt married when they had me

or my younger brother.

and we turned out just fine lol (:

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my parents seriously are good role models

they both work full time jobs

and weekends ...

yet still make time for me and matthew.

not alot of parents can pull that off.

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ayeee i may seem weird thinking about this

but its only 2 or 3 years away..

it scary shit....

i miss being a kid! !

Oh well....

we all grow up sometime :)

xxx