help ?

im in a predicament.

so i need YOUR! help ?

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right..
i mucked up..as you know..my relationship.

ryan was and still is the one person ive ever loved.

i know it sounds crazy since im like 15....but its true.

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i want him back so badly it hurts.

i know what i have to do to get him back,

but ! the problem come to doing it...

is it worth embarassing myself :(

my hearts saying yes !

but as per usually i have my sensible head on which says no :(

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when weer together...

its like weer still going out...

we still do exactly the same stufff ..

but i know weer not going out..

so its not the same,

and tbh it kills me....

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so the question comes...

should i embarass myself + get the one person i love back .

OR!

just say no + just be friends

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tbh seeing it like that...

i dont have a choice ....

which is the shite part...

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i hate not having options.

fuck this im away to have another wee cry ..

xox